Ridaudin Abdul Rasid

12nd June 2013 Greatest Feeling

Knowing someone will always be there for you regardless anything is one of the greatest feeling.

A friend of mine who’s boyfriend have been admitted to hospital due to illness caught me with a thinking cap. It’s been a few days since he’s been admitted and down with excruciating pain. The needles that went through his skin. Ouch! I don’t wanna go there. I hate needles so much. It reminds me bout myself being admitted to the hospital for almost a week with those in me. Horrible! My friend has been at the hospital, accompanying, sitting beside him while waiting patiently for him to wake up and be the first person to see. It really touches me despite having such a busy schedule at work, time is sacrifice to be with the boyfriend. As the saying goes, ‘if somebody likes/loves you, they will chase you, give their best & do whatever they can to make sure you’re okay. Such effort, time been put in just for a person he love.

Imagine you’re the one who’s laying on the bed in pain and all you wanna do or at least wish for is to see that someone special/friends/family to be there for you even in your worst condition. Those people who went through the worst with you, deserve the best in you. I was laying in the bed before. All tired, pain, sweating. I didn’t tell no one bout me being admitted to the hospital except for my family and lecturers. At that point of time, I wanna see every single person who I love, who are important and make changes in my life. My family came everyday. My dad took leaves. My brothers came after their school hours with an hour and a half journey to and for. Friends who care & concern bout me, texted me asking bout my absentees in school and social networks. I appreciate all the small things that everybody made while I’m at my worst. That makes me stronger. fighting everyday to live a better tomorrow. For me, knowing that there’re actually people who’s out there waiting for me to recover and be back on my two feet makes me feel I’m special, makes me have a sense of belonging. It’s one of the greatest feeling/moment I have

27th May 2012 Star Trek

To be honest, I have never ever ever watch a Star Trek movie & today is my first. It was awesome! Out of 5 stars, 4.

I don’t really know why I didn’t watch the movie or like it in the first place. Maybe because of its too science fictional for me. I gotta be kidding myself! I watched Star Wars, Lord Of The Rings. What attracts me to watch it is the trailer of Star Trek Into The Darkness. The trailer caught me with its action, effects and the story. It looks pretty interesting. And another reason for me to watch is because a friend of mine is a big fan of Star Trek. He recommended me to watch the first part before watching the latest one in cinemas in which I didn’t know that it’s a continual movie or somehow link together. Now that’s fascination!

After watching the movie, I’m actually blown away. It’s just so so awesome that I can’t come up with words that’s beyond awesome. There’re parts of the movie which made me tear up. For example, the beginning/intro of the movie. That is the saddest, sweetest, bravest thing for a man to do at that moment. The scarification he made to save his wife and baby and other 800 men onboard the ship is something to be proud of.

Ps: This is my first DVD movie purchased. Achievement unlocked

21st May 2013 Graduation Ceremony

It’s been a wonderful 3 years journey and finally I’ve graduated with Diploma in Visual Communication. It’s the best moment, the best feeling I have now!

Nothing is special than having my love ones to attend my graduation ceremony. To have them sited among the crowds and waiting for my turn to walk down the red carpet stage receiving your certificate is an honor. I feel special cause they are special to me in my heart. They are the only ones who I personally invite to attend my big day. They are my dad and H. Despite having a busy, tight schedule, they took a day off just for me. I appreciate it a lot. I couldn’t ask for more. Their presence there are important than receiving flowers and bears. (Even though I will love to receive it) It’s like a cherry on a chocolate cake.

My dad has never attend to any of my ceremonies before. This is his first time attending something big from me. I wasn’t expecting him to attend cause its difficult for him to take a day off from his work but he actually did! I’m glad he came. By him attending, I’m able to make him proud of me in front of hundreds of students, parents, guardians, friends and make him say, ‘Hey! That’s my son/boy!’ And he did.

Boy am I very very happy that H came down for my graduation ceremony! The moment I saw H in the cab, I was speechless. H actually came down. I wasn’t putting my 100% in H attending for my big day cause of work. H left office earlier just to be in a nick of time for my graduation ceremony. H looks all smart with specs and H attire. i really like it. H is the another guest which I personally invited. H is someone who is special to me. By inviting H, I need H to know that H is special. Having said that, we had dinner together to celebrate my graduation. It’s really sweet of H. It was suppose to be my treat but he wouldn’t allow it. It’s my day and I’m the king. Thank you very very much.

‘Will you remember tonight?’
‘Yes! I will remember that you attend my graduation ceremony tonight’

6th May 2013

One of the reasons that somebody/a person is thin (I would preferably call it slim which feels better) is because of the genes they are born with. I’m those people who are born with it. There is nothing wrong with me, precisely. It’s the way I am. I’m receiving these questions/remarks from family/friends/strangers a lot of times. “Why are you so thin?” “Don’t you eat?” etc etc. Here comes the remarks. “I’m jealous that you can eat anything and everything and you still won’t grow big” “I wish i was like you and don’t have to worry bout my diet”. Thanks. I guess. I’ll take that as a compliment.

I don’t like my greens. Instead, I hate them. Greens don’t taste as delicious as they look. It taste so yuck! (No offence to vegans) I never eat my greens since i’m as young as 5-6 years old. I’ve been forced by my parents to eat my meals with it but i’ll refuse eating my meal and rather starve. I’ll order my food/meal without greens everything. For example, burger. They do put lettuce, onions and other ingredients in it and i will usually request without it or, if i forget, i will take it out personally myself which is tedious to do so but i don’t mind the time of picking it out one by one as long as there are no vegetables in my meal. I’m particular when i order a meal with no greens. It can tick me off just because of that. Almost everybody tell me to eat my greens until today and they they blame it on me that i can’t grow big because of me not eating my greens. I don’t believe that. I’ve known people who don’t like their greens as much as i do and  are still alive, breathing healthily. They have a body bigger than me. So, what gives? Is the problem still rely on me not eating my greens? I don’t think so. I am eating fruits or fruit juice to replace my greens.

I’ve a high metabolism where I’ll go hungry after 2 hours or so. Even after a heavy meal, I’ll find something to munch on. My girlfriends envy that i’ve a high metabolism and i can eat lots of, lots-a sweets/candies/chocolates and my weight won’t put up unlike them. I agree that it’s a good thing but it’s also bad. Being thin doesn’t mean i’m fit. I still have to go to the gym to keep my body fit or at least tone it up. I’ve been checking what i eat whenever i go for grocery shopping. The effort for a thin person like me to grow a big body takes twice or maybe thrice the time of a regular fit body does. People may not notice the difference, but i can feel it. You can’t feel the rain on somebody else’s skin except for yourself.

Do you know how challenging it is for me to find clothes that fit me nicely? Let me tell you, it’s very challenging. Everybody wants to be in clothes in which they feel good and comfortable is, so do I. Mostly clothes that i like so much doesn’t come in S sizes or XS sizes. I prefer to buy clothes that i can feel good and makes me confident despite my size. Clothes do play an important part in my opinion. Seeing people around with nice bodies being in their clothes they love do have effect on me. People doesn’t like how I look when I’ve photos of myself half naked. They don’t like to see how thin or should I say how slim i am. It’s like an eye sore to them. Oh I’m sorry. You shouldn’t have look in my way. People don’t see the effort that people like me or people don’t see the effort that i’m putting in to look good. It sucks. Big time.

29th April 2013

I’ve been receiving this particular question very much recently. The question is, “You keep going to parties after parties, events after events. When are you gonna stop?”.

My reply to that question will always be, “I don’t know.” Why are people asking me this question? Do they know the reasons to why I’m going to this places. Maybe. Maybe not.

The reasons I’m going to parties/events are DJs usually spins in clubs or outdoor events like the beach for example. Yes, my favourite genre of music is EDM ( Electronic Dance Music ). As any other normal human being/fans of an artist, I will like to see the artist LIVE instead of watching it online via Youtube. & Zouk has been doing great at bringing in awesome DJs to Singapore every week. ( Thank you, Zouk! ). Which means I’ve to attended an event once/twice a week or at least 2-4 times per month. This is one of the best clubs where DJs will spin at.

For example, your favourite kind of genre is rock music like Paramore, Blink 182 or so. Imagine there’s a company which brings in these kind of bands into a country every week. Wouldn’t you want to attend and watch them LIVE in front of you? You will, right? It goes the same for me except that it’s in a club.

People will usually stereotype or relate clubs to those bad scenes from movies/drama series. What you watch, is mostly not true. You’ve to experience it in order to know feel it for yourself. When people get to know that i attend to parties/events at clubs, they’ll tend to disappear or keep a distance away from me. I don’t know why. Maybe they are thinking, “Oh! He goes clubbing. He is a bad person. He must be going around drinking, taking drugs, checking out people and etc” To be honest, I am there for the DJs and music. Anything else is a bonus.

Attending these parties/events, I will let out all of my anger, frustration, sadness, disappointment, hurt, translate all that energy into dancing it off on the dance floor. It makes me feel better. Dancing on the dance floor with friends who attend the parties/events with me makes me feel better and happy. It’s like a mini getaway from reality after a week of working/studying hard for some of us and i am one of the some. This is one of the things which I find happiness from. Loud music, deep bass, meeting new people, dance with friends, catching up with life. Unless you’ve any other activities, i am always open to suggestions and all.

After 3 weeks of not meeting H, I finally get to meet for dinner. It’s feel so so great to meet H! I truly miss H. It feels like waiting for examination results and you don’t know when it will be announce. That’s the feeling I have. Had a catch up over drink and dim sum. I like it. It feels homely and comfortable. But it’s short. Spending more time with H is what i always looking forward to every single day. Seeing H, with gorgeous eyes and funny respond just makes me more attracted. I’ve started to grow interest in H.